Spiraling in Synchronicities

Where in Sam Hill did this year go? Like seriously…wtf?

This year for me has been ca-ray-zy, to say the least. But at least growth has come from it all, eh? Dzamn.

So anyway, is anyone setting any intentions for 2022?

I have never really been one for New Year’s resolutions. They always seemed superficial and silly to me. The whole “new year, new me” thing was never my jam. I’m still me–January 1 is just another day. Whatevs.

Two years ago, however, I did set some intentions for the new year. Not resolutions per se, but legit intentions towards a more fulfilling life for myself. That was the first time I ever really tried something like that, and dang was it life changing. If you want to check out that story, you can click here. Three is my new favorite number.

I also set some specific intentions again last December for 2021.

Literally none of them have manifested.

BUT I know things are on their way so it’s all good. The Universe just had some other things planned that I wasn’t quite aware of a year ago. My life looked way different, so my visions were way different.

If I’ve learned anything on this journey, it’s that the divine plan always trumps my own. It’s been a hard lesson but a lesson I’m grateful for, because now I can flow so much more peacefully through life. Everything is always working out for us, as long as we follow down the path we’re called.

It’s true when they say the Universe has your back. You’re very loved and your Universe Team (that’s how I address them) wants everything your heart wants, and they’ll support you on your path to getting it, even if you do it while kicking and screaming.

So anyway, you know how I know it’s all on the way? Because Spirit does a damn good job of sending all kinds of signs and synchronicities to let me know. They do it for everyone, but the more open you are to receiving, the better you get at recognizing them.

I’m going to try to keep this story brief, but hi my name is Jen and I get long-winded, so a brief story is very unlikely.

To preface, I will mention that if you know me at all, you know I’m a fan of the band Tool. I’ve not really listened to them a whole lot lately, however, because it’s heavier than I’m digging at the moment, but that’s beside the point. The band is made up of brilliant artists, and their songs helped me understand everything I was experiencing during my spiritual awakening.

Last December as I was writing my intentions for 2021, I also came up with my “word for the year”. Have you ever done that? I didn’t until last year. My word for 2021 was blossoming. Adorable, right? I love flowers. Especially daisies. They’re so cute.

I felt like 2019 was the year I was tilling the soil (that year was painful af), in 2020 I planted the seed, I wanted to blossom in 2021, and I felt like 2022 would be the year I’d finally bear fruit.

As I was writing these intentions, I accidentally bumped my earbuds that were sitting right next to my journal. Apparently they were turned on and connected to my phone, because when I bumped them, the song Lateralus by Tool started playing at the part where the lyric repeats, “Spiral out, keep going…”

My eyes shot wide open. I got that holy shit feeling inside of me, where I just knew it was a message from the Universe saying that they heard me.

The cool thing about that song is that both the rhythm and lyrics are written in timing using the Fibonacci sequence. If you’re not familiar with the Fibonacci sequence, you can check it out using this hyperlink. It’s basically the mathematical formula to show how everything in nature is comprised of fractals–where the whole is made up of smaller and smaller proportionate versions. The sequence creates a spiral shape, which is the basis for the structure of the entire universe. I may make another post on the Fibonacci sequence at some point because I find it incredibly fascinating. But not ta-day! Anyway, I digress.

When that song started playing, I just knew it was telling me to spiral out in 2021 and keep going.

It’s kind of hilarious because if you look at my life right now from a strictly physical perspective, it seems I have really just down-spiraled.

But if you look at my inner world, I have absolutely blossomed and begun to spiral out. And it took my external world to down-spiral before I was able to internally out-spiral in the way the Universe had intended for me. Perhaps seems paradoxical, but it’s legit. You often do need to be stripped of loads of external things, and to be left in solitude, before you’re able to go within to find yourself, heal, and grow in a way where you’re living in your own truth.

…….
Show me lonely and show me openings, to bring me closer to you…

That’s not the beginning of the end. That’s the return to yourself, the return to innocence.

And if you go no one may follow
That path is for your steps alone


So many great songs that delve into this reality of life, but I’ll stop at those three…
…….

So anyway, how do I know the Universe is telling me that I’ve blossomed and begun to spiral out? I’m glad you asked!

Lately I have been seeing multiple signs regarding both spirals and the Fibonacci sequence. Way too many to list here. And way too many to just be like, nah, that’s a coincidence. There’s no such thing as a coincidence anyway, but even if coincidences were a thing, 10+ “coincidences” are a bit extreme to believe it’s just a coincidence.

There’s also another lyric in the song that says:

Overthinking, overanalyzing separates the body from the mind
Withering my intuition, leaving opportunities behind

On multiple occasions, in conjunction with the spirals, I have been receiving loads of messages about overthinking and self-doubt hindering my growth in my intuitive practices (which are going to be essential in the next phase of my life).

So what they’re telling me is that I’m on the way, but I just need to get out of my own way so I can fully spiral out. This is something I already kind of knew, but I definitely needed to hear the confirmation in order to build momentum in trusting myself, and in trusting what I apparently have to offer the world.

What’s also neat is I got an oracle deck a couple months ago, and the Blossoming card is card #33. Blossoming was my word going into 2021, and the number 33 was the number going into 2020. See my Numerology Symbology post for the 33 New Year’s Eve reference (I also linked that post above).

So yeah, the Universe gave me a bookend to the synchronistic messages I received at the beginning of the year.

Do you see how badass that is?! It’s really badass, you guys.

And before you tell me that I’m crazy and it’s all a coincidence, or that I’m making all of this up in my head, a) go read what I just said a few paragraphs up about coincidences, and b) it was my experience and I know what I felt.

We’ve all been there. You lived this awesome experience, and you’re all hyped, telling your friend a story about what happened, expecting an excited response from them. But then they just kind of look at you all emotionless and apathetic.

Ugh, never mind. You just had to be there.

It’s like trying to describe the love you have for your kids, or the passionate heaven-on-earth feeling you get when you look into your lover’s eyes. It’s a deep feeling that you can’t describe within the limitations of flat human language.

That deep love, or those deep inner knowings, are more powerful than any limitations set in place by humans.

When you get the feeling of knowing and truth within your heart, you cannot explain it to anyone. It’s beyond logic, beyond words, and literally divine and out of this world. If anyone ever questions you, take peace in that knowing in your heart, because you will indeed encounter people who just don’t get it and perhaps demand explanations. And that’s okay. Proof is of the ego. Knowing is of the soul. Just let it be and enjoy that feeling.

My soul knows my truth, and yours knows yours too. Seek it, follow it, feel it, and begin to blossom and spiral out. I cannot effing wait to see where I’ll be in a year from now, and to finally bear some dang fruit in 2022.

**Just wanted to add a little tidbit because Spirit is always blowing my mind. After writing this post, I pulled out my Queen of the Moon Oracle Deck. The card I pulled was Blossoming, and on bottom of the deck was Growth. That feeling!! No such thing as a coincidence, you guys. I love this shit.

……

Lateralus” – Tool

Black
Then
White are
All I see
In my infancy
Red and yellow then came to be
Reaching out to me
Lets me see

As below so above and beyond I imagine
Drawn beyond the lines of reason
Push the envelope
Watch it bend

Overthinking, overanalyzing, separates the body from the mind
Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must
Feed my will to feel my moment
Drawing way outside the lines

Black
Then
White are
All I see
In my infancy
Red and yellow then came to be
Reaching out to me
Lets me see

There is
So much more and
Beckons me
To look through to these
Infinite possibilities

As below so above and beyond I imagine
Drawn outside the lines of reason
Push the envelope
Watch it bend

Overthinking, overanalyzing, separates the body from the mind
Withering my intuition, leaving opportunities behind

Feed my will to feel this moment
Urging me to cross the line
Reaching out to embrace the random
Reaching out to embrace whatever may come

I embrace my desire to
I embrace my desire to
Feel the rhythm
To feel connected
Enough to step aside and
Weep like a widow
To feel inspired
To fathom the power
To witness the beauty
To bathe in the fountain
To swing on the spiral
To swing on the spiral
To swing on the spiral
Of our divinity and
Still be a human

With my feet upon the ground
I lose myself between the sounds
And open wide to suck it in
I feel it move across my skin
I’m reaching up and reaching out
I’m reaching for the random or
Whatever will bewilder me
Whatever will bewilder me
And following our will and wind
We may just go where no one’s been
We’ll ride the spiral to the end
And may just go where no one’s been

Spiral out, keep going
Spiral out, keep going
Spiral out, keep going
Spiral out, keep going

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